I just wanted to take a moment and catch up on the last few months. Six months ago I planned a series of health related exams…all the appropriate exams for a man of my age. Two out of three are checked off the list and now all that is left is an annual physical in three weeks. I am clear to go back at it again.
Even though I don’t feel like I have remained on track, it is interesting to hear one of my doctors comment on how much weight I have lost. (I did not want to tell him I have gained 10 pounds back) He was very happy to see that I had lost over 50 pounds. Sometimes you just have to take the victories where ever they come from.
It was also exciting to attend the ATX Recommitment Party at RunTex. I do get some satisfaction from knowing that an idea of mine could grow into something so positive. However, ideas without action are nothing and James Russell has led the way. And all of you who have been with this since the beginning and those that are new….you are the reason that a tribe of people with a common purpose have flourished.
So things are well and I wish you all the best. In a few more weeks you will see me back on the town lake trail.
I am getting back on track. First, for 9 days in a row I have tracked everything I have eaten. I went over my daily points on a few days but never used all my weekly extra points. (Those of you who speak Weight Watchers understand the points)
Next, I am blogging again. This may not seem like much to you but it is my public method of staying on track. Blogging is all part of the program. I have to confess I am still slow on the daily exercise, but it will come.
And today I renewed my membership in ATX 100. I figure if I can duplicate last year’s success I will be even healthier next year this time.
So I have to get walking. Don’t think I am in good enough shape to walk the Formula 1- 5K this weekend, but there will be something for me to sign up for later this month and in December.
Right now I am not going to the scale…the number isn’t as important as the program. Track what I eat, keep blogging and walk.
And to everyone out there that has felt like you aren’t making as much progress as you like….don’t worry about it. Just keep moving forward.
Every day is a joy and I want to see what kind of excitement the future holds.
Oh! My golf game is better…
Me too….I am just trying to regain my program. I don’t feel like I am accomplishing very much but still can’t discount the progress. I am healthier than I was last year and weigh less than I did last year at this time….The only really good news is that I KNOW I have gained weight and it is going to stop.
How many of you still have some fat clothes in your closet? I have one pair of jeans four sizes bigger than I am wearing now and one huge shirt stuck up on the top shelf….my cat seems to likes sleeping on them. A couple of months ago I decided to have two suits re-cut at the tailors. I wanted to be able to get some use out of them but I did not want to buy new clothes because I was convinced I was still losing weight.
Instead I started gaining weight. Damn! Now one is uncomfortable and one is just too small. An alarm went off in my head. So I cleaned out my closet and got rid of everything else that was a bigger size. I sort of drew a line in the sand and said “No More!” I am not gaining any more weight. I am not backing up! I had Michele alter some slacks that were too big so I could get some use out of them. Everything else I gave away.
All last week I tracked my food 75% of the time. Some days were 100% but some were just spotty. My goal this week to track everyday for 7 days. Next I am going to get moving…nothing big just do something physical every day. Played golf yesterday and walking today….everyday this week.
And I am renewing my membership in the ATX 100. This group has helped me and so many others. I don’t want to go this next year without being a part of ATX 100.
The other important point is….this is for the rest of my life. Sure I have goals along the way and I have missed some of them. But I have not lost sight of the Life Goal…Keep living a healthier life style.
For those of you who care enough to read this blog….thank you! For those of you that gain something positive from reading this….all I can say I hope that it helps.
But I am responsible for my own health….So I am going to take the good along with the bad and just keep moving forward.
This is a real struggle. I have just lost all sense of motivation. Or dedication.
I just weighed in and gain 2 lbs in the last four weeks….still even with some ups and downs I weigh exactly what I weighed on May 2, 2012. What is that 13 weeks…no progress.
I feel like I am off track...hell off track doesn’t even come close to describing it…I have no idea where the track is. Everything I start to write sounds like everything I have written before. “Intermission Is Over”???? No there has been a complete power outage.
I don’t know how to get out of this rut. I am not exercising. I returned to ATX 100 for a couple of meetings and enjoyed being around so many people who were enthusiastic about getting healthier. There are so many new people and a few of the original group. When we started ATX 100 I told them that I would be there even if it became the ATX 1. Because, I wasn’t giving up. I intended to live a healthier life style forever.
Is this the let down that has always plagued me? I was so jacked up after completing the Capital 10K. I really had a sense of accomplishment. But since the Cap 10K, I have hardly moved. It has only been the last 3 weeks that I have gotten out and walked over 5 K on three different occasions. I set myself up for what now appears to be a near impossible goal to walk the Half Marathon next February 17th. I feel like I have defeated myself before I even get started.
Recently I was told to focus on the program and not the pounds. The Program…
Public Commitment-Blog…Record Keeping-Publishing Weight…Regular Exercise…and Faith
One day at a time…
Flash the house lights, summon the ushers, get the band back on stage…whatever works. Intermission is over. It is time to start the next act. Notice I didn’t say last act of final act. This play is ongoing and being written daily.
Well I obviously have not been writing daily. Some of you have asked have “I given up?” “You still working on getting healthier?” The answer is yes.
I just weighed in and I lost -0.8 pounds…Humm, in the last seven weeks? I have not been doing all the things I need to do to make progress….if progress is losing more weight and walking further. I haven’t been tracking what I eat daily, weighing in weekly or exercising at least five times a week. I would best describe my actions in the last two months as mindful. It is like learning a foreign language. Let’s say Spanish. I have not been going to class nor doing my homework… But I have been speaking Spanish every day. Not all day long, but enough to keep my skills up. So I call that mindful.
Some may say a period of maintenance. At some point I have to live my life in such a way as to not gain weight back. And I have done that in the last two months.
But who am I kidding….I just lost focus and I am damn lucking that I have learned enough Spanish along the way to not go crazy and gain a bunch back.
The eating and tracking food and weekly weigh in are not the biggest problem for me…I have obviously done something right in that regard. But Exercise still remains my biggest demon. I realize now that I have to be driven toward some goal to perform. I have to commit to an event. I have done several 10K events and a bunch of 5 K events. Even though I struggled with the Capital 10 K I finished and was proud of myself. At the time I committed to the Cap 10K I felt like I could pull it off.
Now…I have signed up for The Austin Half Marathon. And, now I don’t feel so confident. But I need a challenge and a new goal. It shouldn’t be that difficult….really what is that???? 23K? More than twice the Cap 10K…
Intermission is officially over!
I am reasonably back to a normal routine. And the last two weeks reflect progress.
Tracking my meals and counting all the Weight Watchers Points is a must. I don't think there will ever come a day that I will no longer need to track what I eat.
The next big thing that helped me get back to normal was preparation. Having the right kinds of food available makes it a lot easier to make better choices. Stocking up on My Fit Foods meals is a big help. My Fit Foods enables me to have breakfast and lunches available at my office. (If you haven’t checked our My Fit Foods there is a link on my blog.) Michele and I did a better job of preparing evening meals in advance so that neither one of us had to spend too much time cooking.
I still feel a sense of lost time because I have to work to get back to a previous weight level. But I have successfully lost back half the weight I gained during my five week slip.
That is all part of being aware and getting back to normal.
Just a brief note to say that I am still in the game! These last three weeks I have been completely outside my comfort zone. I figured out that I spent 11 days out of town out of 20.
I haven't made a Weight Watchers Meeting in that time...
I haven't tracked on a daily basis what I have been eating....
I haven't exercised...except for walking the Bunny 5 K. Which was FUN!
I haven't prepared myself everyday to do and eat the things I should...
Result is that in the last five weeks I have gained 4.6 pounds. Good News? Yes there is good news. I am back on track, weighed in yesterday and have gotten back into doing the things I know I need to do to get healthier. Good News! Yes I am aware...You see when you have lost as much weight as I have in my life time and then gain in all back. There was a complete disconnect....I was never really aware that I was gaining all the weight back until it was too late. Today I know exactly how much weight I have gained and why. That is Good News!
There were a lot of lessons learned this last week and I intend to write about all of them....
It has been a week and I think I can finally wrap my mind around the whole thing.
I need to start by thanking a bunch of people…first no doubt about it is my Wife Michele. That is true about so many things in my life. She makes a difference in every way. Next our KIDS…. (By age) Jennifer, Jo-anna and James. James again because he has worked so hard to make the ATX100 Group a success.
Speaking of the ATX100 group…Thanks to Brenda for telling me after the Reindeer Run 5K that I could do it, I could walk the Capital 10K. And to Mark and Wilma for walking with us on that hot spring day. And so many more of you that it is hard to include all the well wishes. It sounds like I just won an Academy Award and that was my acceptance speech.
Prior to race day I had walked the 10K distance and this particular route 5 times before, all in an attempt to prepare. I woke up Sunday morning and told Michele I was going to make in less than two hours. My previous best was 2:09 and my worst 2:30.
I did a lot of things wrong. Here is the check list.
1.) Don’t drink alcohol 24 hrs prior-3 glasses of wine with dinner the night before.
2.) I wasn’t ready for the crowd and standing around for 1½ hours before the race-my back was killing me before I ever started.
3.) Pace yourself-I took off like a shot (FOR ME A SHOT) walked my fastest 1K, 2K and 2½ K-then whoops I started slowing down.
4.) Hydrate-see previous note about alcohol plus not enough fluids to start-Where the hell is the next water station?
What started out as a quest to be under 2 hours-turned into beating my previous best- turned into just surviving? Mark was grabbing two water cups at each stop just to keep me going. At the 5K I was exactly 60 minutes. Oh well there goes my best time. At 7.5 K I was thinking I just want to beat my worst time. At 8.0 K my therapist was waiting and congratulated me while he walked with me for a block. (I know, but it is true. It sounds a little Woody Allen like!) At 8.5 K Mark is telling me not to be a hero and get some help. But at 9.5 K, when the man at the water station said “O.M.G. are you alright? Here sit down. There is the EMS cart let me get you some help.” Damn that was cold!
I finished….not my fastest, not my worst, not last and I stayed ahead of the traffic control guys picking up cones. As I sat on the rock wall after the race I was drinking bottle after bottle of water and saying I should have done better. After listening to me whine for 20 minutes Mark asked me “What was your time last year in the Capital 10K?” I didn’t walk the Cap 10K last years! “Exactly!”
Five years ago I finished walking in the Turkey Trot 5 Mile to raise money for a charity. When I crossed the finish line, I walked over to a rock wall and sat down. Four years I sat on that rock wall and didn’t exercise. I finished the Capital 10 K walked over and sat down on another rock wall. Thirty minutes later and four bottles of water, I got up and said…
”What’s next?” My life’s journey continues…see you on the trail.
Another couple of weeks of a small losses. The last 5 weeks have been very flat. I think I have lost 2.2 pounds.
I am happy with how things are going right now. I have not lost sight of what I am trying to accomplish and my determination has not been damaged by a string of slow weeks.
On the up side, I have not had the large ups and downs. There hasn’t been a +4 pound gain one week followed by the large drop.
And more clothes are going out to goodwill and smaller clothes are coming in...I have much more room in my closet. Almost time to buy some new belts.
Next blog I will spend some time bringing you up to date on the
Capital 10 K!
In the last few days I have seen a lot of people that I haven’t seen in months or maybe even years. A lot of them remarked about my weight loss.
It got me to thinking about how people see me….I guess if I ran into someone that I haven’t seen in 9 years they would probably not comment. That’s because today I am 30 pounds heavier than 9 years ago. However, people that have consistently been around me for the last five years don’t hesitate to comment. To some of them it looks like I have lost a lot of weight. That number could be between 60-70 pounds which is a lot of weight…unless you were already 200 pounds overweight. Then it is a really great start.
No, I am not selling myself short here…61 pounds is a big accomplishment and I am very pleased to be living healthier every day. So the question still stands, “How Do People See You?” Or in this case “See Me?” And how important is what they think?
We all love the complements and it is nice that people notice. But this is a forever life style for me….and I need to focus on going day to day. Just like the good comments make us feel better, the non-comment can bring us done. And just like I can’t let one bad day on the scale discourage me from living my life, I can’t let what people say or don’t say slow me down.
Take the complement when you get them and just say “Thank You!” And when you feel like nobody is noticing, just give thanks for what you are doing. Remember all the clothes you gave away because they were too big. And give thanks for the people in your life that you love.
Michele, I love you more than cupcakes!
Happily Married living in central Texas. Great family living near by... Jennifer, Jo-anna and James.