INTERMISSION IS OVER

Flash the house lights, summon the ushers, get the band back on stage…whatever works. Intermission is over. It is time to start the next act. Notice I didn’t say last act of final act. This play is ongoing and being written daily.

Well I obviously have not been writing daily. Some of you have asked have “I given up?” “You still working on getting healthier?” The answer is yes.

I just weighed in and I lost -0.8 pounds…Humm, in the last seven weeks? I have not been doing all the things I need to do to make progress….if progress is losing more weight and walking further. I haven’t been tracking what I eat daily, weighing in weekly or exercising at least five times a week. I would best describe my actions in the last two months as mindful. It is like learning a foreign language. Let’s say Spanish. I have not been going to class nor doing my homework…  But I have been speaking Spanish every day. Not all day long, but enough to keep my skills up. So I call that mindful.

Some may say a period of maintenance. At some point I have to live my life in such a way as to not gain weight back. And I have done that in the last two months.

But who am I kidding….I just lost focus and I am damn lucking that I have learned enough Spanish along the way to not go crazy and gain a bunch back.

The eating and tracking food and weekly weigh in are not the biggest problem for me…I have obviously done something right in that regard. But Exercise still remains my biggest demon. I realize now that I have to be driven toward some goal to perform. I have to commit to an event. I have done several 10K events and a bunch of 5 K events. Even though I struggled with the Capital 10 K I finished and was proud of myself. At the time I committed to the Cap 10K I felt like I could pull it off.

Now…I have signed up for The Austin Half Marathon. And, now I don’t feel so confident. But I need a challenge and a new goal. It shouldn’t be that difficult….really what is that???? 23K? More than twice the Cap 10K…

Intermission is officially over!

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