I just wanted to take a moment and catch up on the last few months. Six months ago I planned a series of health related exams…all the appropriate exams for a man of my age. Two out of three are checked off the list and now all that is left is an annual physical in three weeks. I am clear to go back at it again.
Even though I don’t feel like I have remained on track, it is interesting to hear one of my doctors comment on how much weight I have lost. (I did not want to tell him I have gained 10 pounds back) He was very happy to see that I had lost over 50 pounds. Sometimes you just have to take the victories where ever they come from.
It was also exciting to attend the ATX Recommitment Party at RunTex. I do get some satisfaction from knowing that an idea of mine could grow into something so positive. However, ideas without action are nothing and James Russell has led the way. And all of you who have been with this since the beginning and those that are new….you are the reason that a tribe of people with a common purpose have flourished.
So things are well and I wish you all the best. In a few more weeks you will see me back on the town lake trail.
This is a real struggle. I have just lost all sense of motivation. Or dedication.
I just weighed in and gain 2 lbs in the last four weeks….still even with some ups and downs I weigh exactly what I weighed on May 2, 2012. What is that 13 weeks…no progress.
I feel like I am off track...hell off track doesn’t even come close to describing it…I have no idea where the track is. Everything I start to write sounds like everything I have written before. “Intermission Is Over”???? No there has been a complete power outage.
I don’t know how to get out of this rut. I am not exercising. I returned to ATX 100 for a couple of meetings and enjoyed being around so many people who were enthusiastic about getting healthier. There are so many new people and a few of the original group. When we started ATX 100 I told them that I would be there even if it became the ATX 1. Because, I wasn’t giving up. I intended to live a healthier life style forever.
Is this the let down that has always plagued me? I was so jacked up after completing the Capital 10K. I really had a sense of accomplishment. But since the Cap 10K, I have hardly moved. It has only been the last 3 weeks that I have gotten out and walked over 5 K on three different occasions. I set myself up for what now appears to be a near impossible goal to walk the Half Marathon next February 17th. I feel like I have defeated myself before I even get started.
Recently I was told to focus on the program and not the pounds. The Program…
Public Commitment-Blog…Record Keeping-Publishing Weight…Regular Exercise…and Faith
One day at a time…
Flash the house lights, summon the ushers, get the band back on stage…whatever works. Intermission is over. It is time to start the next act. Notice I didn’t say last act of final act. This play is ongoing and being written daily.
Well I obviously have not been writing daily. Some of you have asked have “I given up?” “You still working on getting healthier?” The answer is yes.
I just weighed in and I lost -0.8 pounds…Humm, in the last seven weeks? I have not been doing all the things I need to do to make progress….if progress is losing more weight and walking further. I haven’t been tracking what I eat daily, weighing in weekly or exercising at least five times a week. I would best describe my actions in the last two months as mindful. It is like learning a foreign language. Let’s say Spanish. I have not been going to class nor doing my homework… But I have been speaking Spanish every day. Not all day long, but enough to keep my skills up. So I call that mindful.
Some may say a period of maintenance. At some point I have to live my life in such a way as to not gain weight back. And I have done that in the last two months.
But who am I kidding….I just lost focus and I am damn lucking that I have learned enough Spanish along the way to not go crazy and gain a bunch back.
The eating and tracking food and weekly weigh in are not the biggest problem for me…I have obviously done something right in that regard. But Exercise still remains my biggest demon. I realize now that I have to be driven toward some goal to perform. I have to commit to an event. I have done several 10K events and a bunch of 5 K events. Even though I struggled with the Capital 10 K I finished and was proud of myself. At the time I committed to the Cap 10K I felt like I could pull it off.
Now…I have signed up for The Austin Half Marathon. And, now I don’t feel so confident. But I need a challenge and a new goal. It shouldn’t be that difficult….really what is that???? 23K? More than twice the Cap 10K…
Intermission is officially over!
I wasn’t able to make my normal Tuesday meeting. I was out of town on business. However, one of the many great things about Weightwatchers is the variety of times and locations where meetings are available. So today I went to my usual meeting location, just Wednesday instead of Tuesday.
This last week has been great. I tracked everything I ate every day. For the first time I added in my Activity Points. Whatever form of physical activity you may choose there is a list on the app/online software that allows you to track the time and type and give you a point value. I am not sure yet if those are supposed to be additional points you can eat. But I tracked them anyway.
Also good to note that whatever you gender or weight WW gives you a weekly point value that you may use if you exceed your daily points. None of your daily or weekly points rollover to the next day or week. If you go over today in points but under tomorrow…the result is you still use some of your weekly points for the day you went over. Points Do Not Roll Over!
In summary: Tracked everything I ate…Tracked All My Activity…Did Not Use Any Weekly Points. And I had a reasonable weight loss for the week. -2.6 lbs.
Happily Married to Michele and living in central Texas.